I've written about my sisters before. I have one half sister who I see daily we share the same mum.
Then I have two half sisters on my dads side who I don't see at all.
They live in the same town as I but we don't have any contact and have never had.
They talk with my mum when they see her, they say hi to my sister who's not their sister.
But to me they don't say anything.
I saw them both together last week they were out with their children I was walking on the same side of the road as them but we didn't say anything.

Today I was at the store and the younger one of them were there with her boyfriend I assume (Who is MUCH younger than her he's my age) anyway I was just about to pay and there was no one behind me.
Then she and her boyfriend was walking towards me but as soon as she saw it was me she turned around.
What's that all about!? She's a grown-up in her mid 30's.

I havn't done anything to neither of them they know I'm their sister but they never tried to get in contact with me even when I was younger.
This hasn't been bothering me before as I just thought they were idiots for treating me like air.
But now since I had my son I think about it more.
He has, I think 4 cousins on my side and one the way.
And he will never know them.
He has cousins on his dad's side but they live in his home country so he never see them either.

I know I could go and say something to them but they have been treating me like this since I was a kid.
I've written before that one time when I was younger they gave my other sister a christmas present but I didn't get anything.
She's not their sister I am!
I would never treat anyone like that. I assume they think it's too late now but they could have changed this ages ago.

Well, I really don't see them as my sisters. If anyone ask me I always say I have one sister. I'm treating them just the way they treat me. Like they don't exist.

Second day at nursery. Came there at 9 to drop Leon off.
First day he's going to be there by himself.
On the way there he was all happy telling me he should play with the train and draw me a picture.
But as soon as we got there he clinged on to me and wouldn't let go.
When I said I had to go he ran away and sat on the bench just right next to the door and said that he wanted to go home
Took me 20 minutes before I could go and at that point he was in tears and as I was walking throught the corridor I could hear him cry
His teacher just called me and said he had been crying for a couple of minutes and then he cooled down but he is still very reserved and I guess he's going to be for some time now.
I wish there was something I could do to make it easier for him.
It kills me that in 2 weeks time I may start school and then I have to leave him early and come to pick him up late.
On the other hand I know it's good for him to be there but I hate to see him cry and saying he wants to come home with me

I got a reply from the man at the university.
To have a chance to get accepted to this education you have to have been working for one year.
I havn't only for 10 months but because I am a mum and stayed at home with my son for over a year that counts too.
So he told me to sen him the birth certificate of me and my son and the papers of that I have been working.
There's still spaces left so if I'm lucky I will get accepted!

Leon wasn't happy at all today going to nursery.
He clinged on me and refused to let go so I ended up spending the whole day with him there.
They thought that was best and by the end of the day he didn't want to go home
Tomorrow he's gonna be there by himself all day so I hope it goes well.

Oh I'm all excited about this university thing!
I think I need to go and lay down for a while

So tomorrow our summer vacation is over.
Leon starts nursery again. I could see he was nervous today, he hasn't been there since the beginning of June.
So it's been a while.
And It's not gonna be as before. They have two sections at his nursery.
One for the younger children and one for the older one's.
And tomorrow is his first day with the older children.
He knows the teachers and most of the children but it still gonna be tough as he is very shy and now he hasn't been there for months.
So I predict I'm going to have a rough time leaving him tomorrow.
But I'm sur that as soon as I left he's going to be fine

I didn't get in to the uni
I'm pretty bummed about that cause that was pretty much my lifeline.
Got a e-mail today about another education that was my second choice, I didn't have all the right qualifications for it so I wasn't accepted.
But now they had a couple of spots left.
I did send an e-mail back telling I was very interested.
I guess they will choose the one's that are best suitable.
This is my last chance if I don't get in I don't know what to do this autumn.

Gonna get ready for bed early morning tomorrow.
Not used to that.