Leon got a new film on the post today - Bee Movie.
I guess I forgot to cancel the order so surprisingly it droped into the mailbox today.
We were supposted to watch it together but Leon gave in after about 20 minutes and found something funnier to do
So I had to watch the whole movie by myself.
I liked it though I'm not so much into cartoons it was funnier when I was a kid and now I get bored watching cartoons.
But this one I liked very much.
I can understand why Leon didn't think so cause it's made for older children (and adults ) he laughed when I laughed but he didn't get the humour.
Tweenies is more of his thing that's his favourite he watches it every morning before he goes to nursery school.
And if he for some reason misses it he lets me know. Big time!

Yesterday Leon was a sweetheart all day long.
Today he has behaved so far. But the day is not over yet
This weekend he is going to stay with his dad. Or so is the plan.

I kinda have plans for the weekend too...I think.
I'm still a bit uncertain.
Tell you guys why when I made my decision.

Got an e-mail from the employment agency today saying my contact person was on holiday and will be back on monday. Great!
Got a few tips though on where I could turn and check if they still needed staff for the summer so I will definitely do that and hope for the best.

>>Arctic Monkeys - A certain romance
>>Babyshambles - Loyalty song
>>The Clash - Career opportunities
>>The Clash - Clampdown
>>The Honorary Title - Bridge and tunnel
>>Joy Division - Love will tear us apart
>>Kings Of Leon - Fans
>>The Libertines - Death on the stairs
>>The Libertines - The Delaney
>>The Magic Numbers - Take a chance
>>New Order - Age of consent
>>New Order - Here to stay
>>The Who - Teenage Wasteland

Yesterday was not a good day for me in many ways.
The main reason was Leon.
He drove me crazy yesterday he has this phase right now where he doesn't listen to me at all.
And he do the opposite of what I tell him.
I know he is trying to test my boundaries and it's only temporary but still I really struggle with it.
Sunday he went too far. We were leaving this store and he turned around and looked at me and had this smirk on his face like "just watch me" and he ran away out on the parking-place and two cars had to hit their breaks.
I got so scared! And when I told him what could have happened he just laughed and thought it was funny.
He has this t-shirt saying "I'm going my own way" and that's so true!
He's like a little devil
Anyway I know it's just a phase and I know it will pass but it's making me crazy!

I feel alot better today my cold is almost gone, yaaay!!
I managed to send my contact at the employment agency an email today also.
Just a week later that I was planning to but that's just me always postponing stuff.
But now it's done and I hope he's not too angry at me.

And the sun is back! Yesterday was all grey and cold I guess my mood follows the weather.
But today I'm happy

>>Band Of Horses - Our Swords
>>Band Of Horses - Cigarettes, Wedding bands
>>Band Of Horses - The Funeral
>>Band Of Horses - No one's gonna love you
>>Cajun Dance Party - The hill, the view, the lights
>>Cajun Dance Party - Buttercups
>>Fionn Regan - The Cowshed
>>Fionn Regan - Be good or be gone
>>Fionn Regan - Put a penny in the slot
>>Maria Mena - Sleep to dream
>>Maria Mena - My Lullaby
>>Maria Mena - Monday Morning

This weekend has been like hell.
Thursday I started to feel pretty bad and thought it was my allergy that started to kick in.
But friday morning I woke up with hight fever and I felt really weird I had like hallucinations when I first woke up, really scary.
Saturday I felt pretty good I was even outside for a while though I couldn't stand the heath.
Having a cold and summer heath is not a good combination.
Yesterday me and Leon went to the park we played football and played some mini-golf as my mum "works" there sundays.
We had a great time!
But as the evening came I started to feel bad again and the fever came back and I had a really sore throat.
The night was dreadful tha pain was so bad and I don't think I fell asleep until 4-5 or something and then I had to get up again at 7.30.
Today my throat is better but I still got a fever not that high though.
But I'm tired!

And if that wasn't bad enough Leon has been a handfull today.
First he didn't want to get dressed and we were in a hurry cause he had to be at nursery at 9.
Luckily we got there in time but then round two started he got a outburst as soon as we came in.
The other children was preparing to go to the woods and he just didn't wanna go.
He was screaming, kicking all you can imagine and I was on the edge to have a nervous breakdown right there.
I had to leave him there crying after me as I left.
Didn't feel good at all but I couldn't give in a take him with me cause then he had won.
I hope he is atleast a bit happier when I'm coming to pick him up later.

I'm gonna try to sleep an hour or two now.
I have thousands of things I need to do but I just havn't got the energy for that today.
Hopefully I'm feeling better tomorrow. You can only hope.

I just finished watching the swedish version of The moment of truth.
I find that show really fascinating I could never take part in something like that.
And some people may think twice before they agree to participate.
Last week there was this guy there. He was such an idiot!
He had his girlfriend in the panel and I felt so bad for her.
He got questions like:
Do you prefer blondes over brunettes? (his girlfriend was a brunette)
His answer: Yes.
Do you think your friends have more attractive girlfriends than yours?
His answer: Yes.
Do you want your girlfriend to get silicon boobs? His answer: Yes
Have you ever stolen money from your girlfriend to gamble? His answer: Yes.
And the worst of them all: Have you ever cheated on your girlfriend? His answer: Yes!
He must have know that this should come up. How could he let his girlfriend go through this on national tv!
AND they celebrated their fifth anniversary just that day!
As you may have figured out they are not a couple anymore.

Today there was this other guy. Oh I feel so sorry for him haha!
He had his mum there an basically all the questions were sex related.
The funniset one was:
Have you ever photographed yourself while having sex?
He said yes.
The host of the show then turned to his mum and asked her:
"Has he always been interested in taking photos?"
The mum: "No I can't say he has it must be something he started with recently"
I find that sooo funny!!!

How lovely hasn't it been today?
It's summer heath outside and I'm loving it!
Spent most of the day outside today, ofcourse.
After I picked up Leon at nursery we went back home to get his bicycle and we went for a long stroll.
I'm just filled with happiness today.
I know I have some issues I have to take care of but today I just forgot about them and just focused on all the positive things.

I wish every day could be like this!

Directions:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the questions.
4. NO CHEATING! Or you're no fun.

1) How am I feeling today?
Naive - The Kooks

2) Where will I get married?
We used to vacation - Cold war kids

3) What is my best friend's theme song?
Give a little love - Rilo Kiley

4) What is/was highschool like?
Time for heroes - The Libertines

5) What is the best thing about me?
Ocean spray - Manic street preachers

6) How is today going to be?
Leave before the lights come on - Arctic Monkeys

7) What is your current mood?
Fuck Forever - Babyshambles

8) Describe my parents?
Nothing in my way - Keane

9) How is my life going?
Put a penny in the slot - Fionn Regan

10) What song will they play at my funeral?
The Penalty - Beirut

11) How does the world seem to me?
Won't be long - The Hives

12) What do my friends really think of me?
This Fire - Franz Ferdinand

13) Do people secretly like me?
Divine - Sebastien Tellier

14) How can I make myself happy?
Can't stand me now - The Libertines

15) What should I do with my life?
Rehab (Amy Winehouse cover) - Paolo Nutini

16) What am I really?
Aggro - The Enemy

17) What is some good advice?
Kill the director - The Wombats

18) What is life about?
Straight to hell - The Clash

19) Am I in love?
Turn on me - The Shins

20) What type of men/women do you like?
A punk - Vampire weekend

21) Will you get married?
Ask the DJ - Mr Hudson & The Library

22) What should I do with my love life?
What a waster (Libertines cover) - Adam Green

23) Where will you live?
I like what you say - Nada surf

24) Words to live by?
Here to stay - New Order

25) How will my love life be?
Here it goes again - Ok Go

26) How will life be in 10 years?
Old new bridges - The Domus

27) What was my childhood like?
Is there a ghost - Band of Horses

28) How well did I do in school?
Somewhere else - Razorlight

29) How do I feel about my friends?
Lost in the supermarket - The Clash

30) What do I think about love?
Tonight I have to leave it - Shout out louds

My sons hair grows very fast. I want to keep it pretty short now when the summer is coming as he get's very warm.
So yesterday I was cutting it and as I was about to cut he reached for something and I slipped with the scissor I got terrified when I saw a bald spot upon his head!
I tried to fix it but it just looked...how shall I put it, not good!
I didn't have any other option than to cut it all off.
I cried inside when I looked at his bald little head I wanted it short but not THAT short.
I'm starting to get used to it now and it doesn't look bad don't get me wrong but I'm not used to see him with no hair.
He just got a few millimetres of hair now.
The positive thing is that it grows back again I guess
We were out playing earlier and his father was standing on his balcony he pointed at Leon and made a gesture if I shaved his head.
Well I didn't shave it but it pretty much looks shaved.
Then he just laughed, I know he wanted to shave his head before but I wouldn't let him.
No I did it. I can see what's funny now

You know summer is soon coming when my neighbours start their barbeques.
They gather all their friends and family and have a barbeque on the lawn outside our house.
It's not an ordinary barbeque though. They don't grill hamburgers and hot dogs and that stuff. No they go all the way, they are grilling a whole lamb! Not kidding!
Just outside my window it's funny to see really.
I'm not sure they are allowed but they seems to have a great time together.
Having their car parked just next to them that's pumping loud music, the kids are running around playing with eachother.
So nice to see
I guess most swedes would find this particular barbeque as horrifying.
I don't live in a typical swedish neighbourhood here's a mix of swedes and people from different countries and cultures.
But I find it charming in a way.
In a way I wish I had that.
A big family that got together and spent time togehter.
Sadly my family is me, my son, my mum and my sister and that's basicly it.
I could miss having a big family sometimes.
But on the other hand I've heard horror stories about family gatherings.
And with that in mind I'm glad I don't.